Appointments

A boring post, but writing is my therapy. Grab your popcorn or leave now. I may bore ya!

So today I had my yearly appointment at the gynecologist. Nothing to report. Which is good! Nothing to report when it comes to that is always good news!

Today I also had a ENT appointment, where I had my hearing and allergies tested. For the past few years I have been getting sick quite a bit. Turn out that I am on a scale of 1-4 a 4 for some dust allergies, therefore I get allergies and start to feel the sore throat cough etc and assume I am getting sick. Which is really just in turn allergies. BUT since I never knew it was it progresses into a infection. So whenever I notice a sore throat coming on I am to take clariton. Now the allergy test I was hesitant to have done...doesn't everyone and their mother have allergies? Nonetheless, glad I had it done. Then onto my hearing! It tested good, he does notice some areas that should be retested in the next few months, but nothing to jump to some hearing aids or anything crazy! All good news!

Here is the big shocker. For the first time since losing my daughter I saw a therapist today as well! (I know a day full of fun exciting appointments!) I am going to try to wean off Zoloft.  Carter had withdraws when he was born and honestly I do not want to depend or be on it my whole entire life! As most of you know, it is not because of depression, but my crazy anxiety ridden mind.
  Lately I have had so much bothering me personally. I broke down to see a therapist. I mean how are you supposed to come off Zoloft if you still have anxiety! Talking things through made me realize, I cant please everyone. All I can do is be the best person I can be. Be the best wife, mother and friend. I am confident I am all of those and more importantly I am confident that I am a good person. I have a good heart and I would give the shirt off my back to someone in need. I always always put others before myself (which I know is not always a good thing) I always treat others the way I want to be treated and I know that life is simply too short not to do so. SO! Fingers crossed this all goes well! Cheers to a zoloft free life.

I feel like a mother hen. Isnt nesting only supposed to take place when you are pregnant? I nest months before I get pregnant. (Or hope to be pregnant) It is preparation that my body and mind are as healthy as possible.

I do have a few appointments left. I have a annual with my internal medicine doctor as well as a followup with my cardiologist!

I am now going to focus on myself and my beautiful family!