Sunday, April 11, 2010
A big thanks!
A big thank you to Franchesca @ Small Bird Studio. My blog looks fantastic AND I can't stop looking at it! I was so afraid to change it because when I TTC, I wanted to keep this blog...Now I have decided when we are pregnant again I will just make another :) Cara deserves her own page :)
Sunday, April 4, 2010
My baby shower
Below is a link that my Uncle and Aunt created for me during my baby shower. After I delivered Cara I deleted everything from my baby shower since it was not even 2 weeks prior. So I am trying to get everything back!
My baby shower
Hopefully this link works.
Here are some pics...
My baby shower
Hopefully this link works.
Here are some pics...
Holiday schmoliday and I am not the strongest person you know
I hate every holiday. I used to LOVE Halloween and Thanksgiving. Yah no.
Halloween I hate because it reminds me that I still had Cara, she was still safe in my belly. Thanksgiving...dont even get me started, I was still doped up on all medications and it was really all a blur. It was a few days after I was released from the hospital...for the SECOND time. Yah no thanks to thanksgiving.
Christmas well that was not too bad because Cara was not even supposed to be born yet. SO I GUESS I can let that one slide.
Easter. Oh thats right...today is Easter. I kind of let holidays creep up on me and I dont nearly pay attention to them anymore like I once did. I did not even get anyone a "Hoppy" Easter card. Holidays are just not important. Today is hard because Cara is supposed to be here. She is supposed to be 3 months old. She was supposed to be baptized, and she was supposed to just be here. Shes not. Oh yah not to mention whats next...Mother Day! Yay....
You know what would make me happy, if people would wish my Daughter Happy Easter, or Merry Christmas. Send her a card in the mail to me, just remember her. I know some people do, like all my angel Mommy friends, but a lot done, like my friends that are close to me. I know I can't expect people to do those things. It just would be nice. I sure hope when her birthday rolls around that she will get some cards...
Its still so surreal, to know that I am a mother of a child that is not here on earth. WTF!? Is this serious? I was ALWAYS that person that said oh that could never happen to me...well it did.
Ok so on to the second part of why I am posting. I am not the strongest person you know. Really I am not. I guess it bugs me when some will say "your just so strong, I dont know how I could have ever done it" Ok but you never know what you can or can't do until sometime happens. You get through it...you just do. Its just weird to hear people say that they couldnt do it. You learn. You learn to breathe again, how to live again and how to just be again.
Hoppy Easter Nolan, Jett, Eli, Cora, Vincent, Chase, Emma, Janessa, Kasey, Jenna, Brenna, Naomi, and all other Angel babies up in heaven!
Halloween I hate because it reminds me that I still had Cara, she was still safe in my belly. Thanksgiving...dont even get me started, I was still doped up on all medications and it was really all a blur. It was a few days after I was released from the hospital...for the SECOND time. Yah no thanks to thanksgiving.
Christmas well that was not too bad because Cara was not even supposed to be born yet. SO I GUESS I can let that one slide.
Easter. Oh thats right...today is Easter. I kind of let holidays creep up on me and I dont nearly pay attention to them anymore like I once did. I did not even get anyone a "Hoppy" Easter card. Holidays are just not important. Today is hard because Cara is supposed to be here. She is supposed to be 3 months old. She was supposed to be baptized, and she was supposed to just be here. Shes not. Oh yah not to mention whats next...Mother Day! Yay....
You know what would make me happy, if people would wish my Daughter Happy Easter, or Merry Christmas. Send her a card in the mail to me, just remember her. I know some people do, like all my angel Mommy friends, but a lot done, like my friends that are close to me. I know I can't expect people to do those things. It just would be nice. I sure hope when her birthday rolls around that she will get some cards...
Its still so surreal, to know that I am a mother of a child that is not here on earth. WTF!? Is this serious? I was ALWAYS that person that said oh that could never happen to me...well it did.
Ok so on to the second part of why I am posting. I am not the strongest person you know. Really I am not. I guess it bugs me when some will say "your just so strong, I dont know how I could have ever done it" Ok but you never know what you can or can't do until sometime happens. You get through it...you just do. Its just weird to hear people say that they couldnt do it. You learn. You learn to breathe again, how to live again and how to just be again.
Hoppy Easter Nolan, Jett, Eli, Cora, Vincent, Chase, Emma, Janessa, Kasey, Jenna, Brenna, Naomi, and all other Angel babies up in heaven!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
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