Under Contract!

This is our new home! We did it! I am so excited! This home is move in contition! We need to upgrade a few things but it is more to personal taste than to "need." We sit on a 1/4 an acre. I can't wait to add our personal touch to the home! 15 minutes from my Aunt who watches Carter and 20 minutes from my parents and about 25 from where my husband and I work! We used to drive 45 minutes to and from work so 25 is amazing for us. Especially in the chicagoland area! This will not be a home we will stay in, but we plan on being out before 8 years.

Summer Lovin

Panic Mode

Carter is getting big. Yes thats true. I have been noticing myself looking at babies more often and realizing that Carter is not so baby-ish anymore! I know that we would not even start trying until he is 2. We have a lot coming up in the next year. Moving, and doing some big time purchases. It is still on my mind. I find when I am shopping it is still hard to see little girl things.

Last night I was at a wedding...(Congrats Kalyn and Matt...Kalyn is a long time friend of 21 years)

and there was a 9 month old baby girl that crawled up to my husband and was of course in awe of him (just like how all babies seem to be) it made me really crave to have a baby girl. What if it's not a girl? What if my chance at a girl was taken away? How will I ever cope?

Its hard to think of those things as we all know that nothing in life is ever guarenteed. Especially the sex of a child.

I find myself thinking of Cara and getting so angry, but then realizing that she will forever be gone and that nothing will bring her home in my arms so being angry anymore is pointless. It has almost been two years...Nonetheless I hope one day to bring home another baby. Boy...or girl.

Save the drama for another momma!

This Momma does not want drama, especially online drama. NORMALLY it is not a big deal when things are said over my BLM facebook groups. HOWEVER this time it involved 4 of my REAL life friends that are BLM. I will not stand for individual attacking. People were being deleted from a group that was VEY helpful to them because they did not acknowledge someone's sons loss (only because they were not on facebook that day), or because of how they parent etc. I was also personally contacted from the group moderator to be "scolded" because of adding someone.

People should NEVER feel attacked in blog world or BLM group world. I will NOT stand for that or be any part in it. I removed myself from the group, and miss all my fellow BLMs that I got to know, but I can't be apart of anyone on a power trip. We all need support. We should be looking to build eachother up not put eachother down.

Also this is the message that I sent to the group moderater after I POLITELY removed myself. I do not think that was hateful as I was told she claimed it was...sigh...

I just wanted to say that it is sad you are on some sort of power trip. People need support and should not be judged...is that one of your own rules? Anyways I know a lot of people in your room in real life and I know my post was deleted. I will not stand for such negativity towards my fellow blms and myself. Some were hurt. I think you should be kind to others more often .

I have started my own facebook Momma group to go for advice, tips and support. There will be no judging!!