Sometimes...

I just can't believe this is my life! (In a totally good way) I have two gorgeous healthy children and a wonderful HEALTHY husband. (Had a slight health scare but all is well, not even worth blogging about because it was a blip on my radar and now in the past)

Really?! I am so blessed. I am blessed to have met and hold my sweet Cara as well even though she lives forever in my heart, it is so bittersweet. It seems like yesterday when I lost her and my world came crashing down. Fast forward and I am the happiest I have ever been.

Carter is the most loving caring little boy I know. EVER. He has such compassion and a drive to make others happy! Carter has signed up for preschool and is thriving in speech therapy! SO many new words.

Emery is the sweetest little thing. She smiles at everything and believe it or not has bright clear blue eyes!

My world is revolved around these two. Not that it was not before, but now more than ever. I am not fully back at work yet and am really struggling and having a hard time with going back the three days that I work. Its so hard to leave them and not be there. I think what makes it harder for me is she is my ONLY living girl and this is it. This is my last baby. EVER. due to my complications after delivery and Emery's kidney disease we just can't chance another baby. It makes it very hard for me to leave them knowing she is it. I am praying for the strength I need to fully be at work. What an amazing summer this has been for my family!

Emery's Baptism!

On Emery's special day she was able to wear my wedding dress! Yes you read that right! We had my gown made into hers. It was nothing short of amazing. I wish she could wear it over and over! We also had a huge blanket made from my dress that can be handed down to her on her wedding day! Always thinking ahead I tell ya!

 

It was such a FANTASTIC day! Filled with love and laughter! 

1 month of fitness!

Can we get a AWWW YEA for turbo fire? Chalean Johnson is rocking my world over here!

 

I am currently working on my fitness 5 days a week. When I go back I may only be able to fit in four, but honestly its a way of life for me now! I can't imagine NOT working out. I schedule it in every day and I actually will not go somewhere or do something if it is going to interfere! This is MY time. 

I will share an update on my 9 week post partum, and 4 week post fitness routine! HUGE changes! I am down 9 lbs in a month! Never thought that was possible. I am only 5 foot 1! 

Excited to where this will take me!

Clean

Yup! I have COMPLETELY changed the way I eat and look at food. It is NOT a diet or a weight loss fad. I just chose to eat clean. I do allow myself one cheat meal Saturday and Sunday. MEALS not cheat day! I have a few things that I refuse to give up such as my Soy milk Mocha Latte. Thats the in refrigerated section of the local grocery store so I am very DOUBTFUL it is "CLEAN" or my Iced coffee with cream and sugar at starbucks. Thats pretty much it! I eat fruit and veggies every single day. I stay away from cards or high processed foods. Here are some of my addictions!

The Lara bars are amazing! I also make self air popped pop corn. In place of sandwiches I make myself two rice cakes with (all natural no sugar added) peanut butter or almond butter) I LOVE cheese and actually in the deli section they now have a reduced sodium GREEK yogurt cheese! WHAT?! I know amazing! I am also addicted to fage greek yogurt. I try to get Carter to eat most of what I do and actually the three products I listed above he loves and he LOVES greek yogurt too!
We also have been MILK FREE for 2 years. Almond milk only!!

Now my reason for posting. Because of this I feel amazing. I have also lost 24pounds! I am only 7-8 pounds away from pre baby weight at 8 weeks post baby! It took me a year to get here after my son! I am already back into my size 6 jeans! Now my upper body thats another story since I am still breast feeding. I am well endowed in that department!

I cant wait to show some before and after photos! I recently just got the clearance two weeks ago to start working out again and I work out 5 times a week! Thank god for fitness DVD's and a super motivated best friend!

My husband and I finally were able to go out together! We went and saw Blake Shelton with my brother, his fiance and our parents! Super fun!

On a whole other level. Emery is now 2 months! Thats CRAY! She is smiling, and get this...napping the same time as Carter man! She also sleeps about 4-5 hour stretches at night! She is a overall easy happy baby. She STILL fits into newborn clothes! Peanut!