32 weeks

Never a dull moment

I wish I was kidding when I say that. Pappy was released to go home after 28 days in ICU and rehab. Not even two days home, he was admitted back to ICU, at the moment we really are not sure why. Virus, another blockage? Pappy also had Cardiac failure, which he always has because of heart disease but with everything goin on. It is getting worse. Time will tell.

My mother is who I worry about. She is constantly there by his side. Watching my grandparents loose their sense of normalcy and independence. They live in a 4 bed room two story home, with no help. It is so hard on my family. Especially when my mother has a full time demanding job to worry about as well as myself and Carter arriving in 5 weeks. (Keep in mind we live with my parents) I think I moved in at a good time. I am here to cook and do whatever they need as is my husband.

On another note. Arthur  my chihuahua has a luxating patella (like a constant dislocating knee) Which is common in smaller dogs and he will need surgery. This sucks. I do have dog insurance, the money is not the problem. I JUST went through a surgery in my chihuahua Charlie and lost him after. We are going to wait until after Carter is born as this problem only gets worse over time and he is not in pain.

Another issue that arised today is Miss Dayzie Mae. Some of you who know me know who I am talking about. She is 17 years old. My dog from my childhood (my parents dog). I came home today from Arthurs vet appointment to find her bleeding at the ear as well as mouth. Blood on the floor and wall. Really? I can't imagine my Gia would have done anything? She has lived with two dogs in the past 2 years and goes to dogggie daycare regularly? I also know that Dogs are Dogs. Dayzie and Gia never had any problems together in the past 5 years nor in the past month we have been living here. Nonetheless Gia did bite her. The vet said it was a puncture wound. I can't believe it. So frustrated.

Just another day in the life...

Happy Dance

My Lab results from the full metabolic panel came back great! NO PE SIGNS. Platelets, ALT and AST were all great! They did however find that I am anemic, which is why I have been so tired and run down!! Doctor said it most likely was the flu again...(possibly because I was run down due to low iron?) I am not on a iron supplement...(put in on my tab) Like I need more pills to my daily regime. BUT HEY. Its. NOT. Preeclampsia. So if its not that...ill take anything else this pregnancy has to offer!

Im not always positive

Im just gonna say it. This sucks. Every time I get sick...nauseous, throwing up etc...any signs of Preeclampsia. I say "Is this it? Are they going to take my baby from me? Do I have preeclampsia again?" It sucks. Now that I am semi in the safe zone as far as survival rate for baby goes, I worry every day, what if I can't take him home? What if this never happens for me?

Yes I have been so positive, but every now and then I get frustrated. What the hell is wrong with me? Thats my latest frustration. All this fatigue, heartburn, throwing up, flu symptoms...ugh. Seriously. Then there is that fine line, do I go to the hospital? Do I wait? Baby was great today on NST but I still feel crappy. I can deal with Preeclampsia and getting sick, I just want Carter to be ok. 

Right now I just want to know what is wrong with me. I want my labs to be ok. I want this horrible heartburn to go away. I can't eat a damn thing without it being horrible. Yes its a pregnancy symptom...but it is also a symptom of Preeclampsia or HELLP. Thats why I hate having it. Same with nausea, yes its a pregnancy symptom...but also PE and HELLP symptom.

Last time I was puking in pregnancy with Cara, she died, and I laid in a hospital bed sick as a dog for a week. Dont want to history to repeat it's self.

If it was Christmas I would say bah humbug