First Scare

Today was a VERY long day.

Last night I realized that little Carter did not wake me up throughout the night and his movements just seemed slower.

My husband talks in his sleep. Most the time its jibberish, and drives me nuts haha! Last night clear as day right when I am up wondering why Carter seems quiet I hear "Something aint right" First off let me just say AINT is not in Kyle's vocabulary...so I though that was strange, but it got me to thinking. What the hell? Was that a coincidence?

Well morning at 8 am rolled around and I still was not getting those big jabs I am used to. 8:30 is when my OB's office opens and let me just say that could not come fast enough. Here is where the agitation begins. I did not get a hold of them until after 9 am. Really? I mean come on!

I spoke with the nurse who knows me and my chart/ "History" and she said ..."so would coming in to have a heart beat check help?" Hell no. That question can't be serious. A heart beat means nothing to me. When I had my emergency appointment with Cara...it was a heartbeat check...she had a heartbeat. Less than two weeks later she was dead. So really that shit means nothing. I want a test an ultrasound, something more. 

I arrived at the OB office, at 10:35 for my 10:45 appointment. (Let me just add this in...as I am walking in some "chick" is on the phone and she says" Ugh no I am not going to be home soon, they are sending me to the hospital because my blood pressure is high" Of course she was annoyed when she said this. I wanted to stop her and say excuse me but my baby died because NO ONE sent me to a hospital! Be glad your being looked after moron.)  Nurse took me back. Urine good! Blood pressure surprisingly good! (I have been very calm about these things because I realize freaking out does nothing) well 45 minutues...YUP 45 minutes later, the PA comes in.

Ok so let me explain my feelings on a physician assistant, as much as I can without saying too much that I am not "allowed" to say for various reasons. I am not fond of them. Cara is not here, because of bad care. You get the drift...There is a REASON there are doctors and a reason there are PAs. While I am sure some are great, some suck. Simple as that.


This PA was fantastic, very reassuring! Told me she would do an ultrasound, told me to call or come in anytime. We had a ultrasound and heartbeat check and all was good. She explained some days baby's have active days...other days are not so active. Im just so used to Carters major kicks that I get worried if I do not feel them as much and with what I have been through, understandable.

Now here is where I back track to the 45 minutes of waiting. I LOVE my OB and his practice. HOWEVER to keep someone that is worried if their baby is "ok" waiting for 45 minutes...really? Seriously? I know they fit me in but thank god they took my BP before, because if they did after it would have been through the roof I am sure.

I am thankful everything is good. Not a fan of scares and VERY glad I did not have to go to L&D! Im just not ready for that yet. I know I will eventually have to end up there to meet Carter, but I am only 27 weeks...Maybe after 32 we can talk...but not now.

So after my OB apt, I went straight to work, after I grabbed something to eat for the first time all day. Was non stop busy, and finally am home blogging now, its after 9pm. VERY long day!

P.S. Did I mention I failed my 1 hour glucose(only by ten points!)...boo. That stuff made me so sick! I am not looking forward to a 3 hour one!