On our way home I decided spur of the moment I wanted to bring him to see Cara. I do not think I was aware of the emotional stuff that would come with that visit. Its different now that I have a living child. You imagine that child in the ground and its heart wrenching, but then im looking at her grave site and I know she is down there. She should be here. My husband and I cried together. It hit me I have two children. I cant believe Carter is here safely in my arms and at the same time I cant believe Cara is not. It just never gets easier. Sometimes I wonder what I ever did to deserve such a thing in life, but then I remind myself that God never gives you more than you can handle.
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Every time I see a BLM do this very thing...introduce their rainbow(s) to the grave sight it breaks my heart. I am so sorry that you are learning yet another new thing to hurt over. I can't even imagine.
Carter is so big already! I'm glad he's doing good...Gimme more pictures to see...I love um!
hugs mama,
~Felicia
I cannot even fathom all the overwhelming emotions you had going through your head & heart at that moment. ::hugs::
This breaks my heart.
Hugs honey....it is surprising when it sneaks up you that "hey this still happened". I am happy carter is beautiful and doing well! I am also so happy you avoided the car bed!
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